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I appreciate mangos and fresh oj.

I appreciate naps.

I appreciate sweating.

I appreciate “A Course in Miracles “.

I appreciate simplicity.

I appreciate forgiveness.

 

Dear Friends,

My being mostly better has changed. My throat became painfully inflamed this evening. It hurts to talk or swallow. I took this as a very clear sign to not talk, eat or drink until the inflammation is gone. This goes far deeper than being sick. This is not sickness. This is deep deep healing and I am completely in tune with what my body is asking for. I will comply and I am not fearful at all about this in any way. I am strong and present. I am enjoying my silence and fast. Ash Wednesday is tomorrow. Perfect timing! I am starting off lent with humility, compassion and forgiveness.

I forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made. I forgive myself for allowing myself to be hurt. I release any bad feelings I have towards myself and accept that I am unconditional love. I forgive my mom. I forgive my sister and brother. I forgive those that have hit me. I forgive anyone who has tried to hurt me in anyway. I no longer fear you and instead I love you. Thank you for bringing healing. Thank you for bringing clarity. Thank you for doing the best you knew how at the moment. Thank you.

Thank you for reading my blog.

I appreciate you!

with forgiveness and love,

Victoria

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Being Mostly Better: Appreciations and blog: February 27, 2017

I appreciate long naps.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate gifts.

I appreciate mangos.

I appreciate budding trees.

I appreciate bees 🐝

I appreciate fun phone conversations.

 

Dear Friends,

Today I continued to mostly rest. Though I am mostly better from being sick, I am still not feeling my best. I’m in that strange inbetween time, where I feel well enough to think of fun things to do but lack the strength to do them. I was starting to feel frustrated that I was not all the way better yet but I quickly got myself into a place of acceptance. This will not last and is by far not that big of a deal. So I’m not out walking or bicycling for a few days…. Está bien.

Instead, I watched a movie with Savana and Tyler last night. I took a morning and an afternoon nap today. I’ve been reading lots of books to Angel and to myself. I actually haven’t been on Facebook much. The glare for long periods of time is too much for my eyes right now. I have been listening a lot with my eyes closed. I bask in the sounds, dogs barking, cars driving by, birds singing, etc. They are all noises of life going on around me in some form and I am thankful.

I feel deep deep healing happening in my ears and behind my eyes. My left ear felt super hot inside and that was exciting because it’s been giving me trouble since I was a kid. I feel the heat is healing my inner ear and it is draining down my throat, making the left side of my throats scratchy. My eyeballs are super sensitive right now to false lighting and they hurt to touch if I rub them.

So I’m not 100 percent better like I thought and that is ok. I rejoice in the healing process and am grateful for this experience.

Thank you for reading my blog.

I appreciate you!

Graciously yours,

Victoria

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Appreciations: February 26, 2017

I appreciate help.

I appreciate lots of rest.

I appreciate fun movies.

I appreciate warm blankets.

Thank you for reading my appreciations.

I appreciate you!

warmly yours,

Victoria

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Daily Inspiration 🌹

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I Am Connected: Appreciations and blog: February 25, 2017

I appreciate hanging out with lots of friends today.

I appreciate feeling vibrant.

I appreciate always knowing that whatever I ask for it is given.

I appreciate faith.

I appreciate Angel singing.

I appreciate bananas and pears.

I appreciate my truck.

I appreciate home.

I appreciate an abundance of food.

I appreciate laughter.

 

Dear friends,

Today my heart was filled with laughter. Peace and love vibrated through me. I am back in the  luxury of health and I am loving the contrast after being sick.

Yesterday I didn’t want to release resistance to staying sick. I wanted to stay a little longer visiting with my old friend called sickness. Today all resistance is gone.

I am soaring with the eagles. I am opening up like a budding flower. I am swaying in the wind like blade of grass. I am a ripple of water traveling across a pond. I am connected.

 

Thank you for reading my appreciations and blog.

I appreciate you!

dreamily yours,

Victoria

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I appreciate health.

I appreciate spending time with Savana.

I appreciate another day off to rest.

I appreciate little white flowers that grow in the grass.

I appreciate warm water.

I appreciate mangos.

I appreciate dogs.

I appreciate flies.

I appreciate deep healing.

 

Dear friends,

I woke up this morning and my fever had broke. I knew I was on the mend from being sick for 2 days. I did not feel completely better but mostly. In a strange way I wished I had been sick longer. I was enjoying the delirious sleepy feeling of sickness. It is so familiar to me. I spent more years of my life being sick than being well. As a young child I suffered from chronic pneumonia. Even when  I wasn’t sick, I was in the hospital a lot getting skin graft surgeries on my right leg that had been severely burned with hot water when I was 9 months old. As I grew, I continued to suffer from one illness or another. Then as a teenager, mental illness came into effect along with all the physical illnesses. Being sick is something I know how to do.

Being healthy and well is something I’ve experienced the past 10 years and it is amazing and beautiful. Though I admit it makes me uncomfortable at times. Today was one of those days. I didn’t want to get better. I wanted to wallow in what was comfortable. I couldn’t seem to enjoy the moment. I laid outside in the sun just like yesterday when I was sick and feverish. When I was sick I basked in hearing the birds singing and how the sky was such a beautiful color of blue and the feel of the breeze against my face was delicious. Today I could enjoy these things only in very short spurts. I felt empty and uncomfortable in my skin. I was restless and irritated. It’s crazy but what I really wanted was to be sick again.

What is wonderful about this whole experience is, I know this feeling will pass and I will be celebrating being healthy once again.

Thank you for reading my blog and watching my vlog.

I appreciate you!

comfortably yours,

Victoria

 

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I am sick: appreciations and vlog: February 23, 2017

I appreciate lots of rest.

I appreciate my body healing.

I appreciate crickets.

I appreciate birds singing to me all day while I laid in the sun.

I appreciate blue skies.

I appreciate being cared for.

I appreciate help with Angel.

I appreciate a hot bath being drawn for me.

Thank you for reading my appreciations and watching my vlog.

I appreciate you!

feverish and yours,

Victoria

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